Be Mine. . .

Don't you love this banner? I do! My sweet daughter and friend Theresa made it for me. It is what inspired me to decorate for Valentines day this year. I love just looking at it in all it's creativity!

I miss being creative. There is a part of me that is starving to do something creative. I get these ideas but don't have time to act on them! I've been thinking a lot about needing some ME time. Now if I can just figure out how to work it in! I know I need to or the fun part of me will just shrivel up and die! It's the little things that make life fun!

I went with Heidi to the Walter's cabin for their Laurel/Mother weekend. I really didn't want to go. Same old excuse - to much to do, not enough time. But I'm glad I went. It was fun and relaxing. And yes, I even played a game. I know - those who know me well are shocked.

It was fun to just talk and watch movies! I enjoyed being with Heidi and the cute Laurels and the Mom's who went. I had fun talking with Caroline there and back! Thank you Caroline for talking me into it! And thank you Heidi for not caring if I tagged along! :)

Now I am ready to have a great week!

Today is James Birthday!

And a happy 26th birthday to him! We celebrated on Monday! It was lots of fun to fix dinner for someone who appreciates food!

If there is one thing I've learned about having a son in law it's that they can eat and they like it! Girls are so picky. And they don't eat half what you fix. So it is nice to have someone that actually eats!

Hillary made a yummy cake and James was nice enough to blow out all the candles!

A rousing game of Wii Mario Brothers ensued. All I know there was lots of laughing and yelling.

(I retreated to my bedroom where it was much more quiet - and worked on a project for Activity Day Girls!)

So, Happy Birthday James! Thanks for being a Great Son in Law! We love you!

I Love A Rainy Night! (and day!)

This is probably one of the dumbest songs (sung by Eddie Rabbit if anyone cares to know!) of all times... but for some reason it keeps going through my head. Probably because of all the rain we've had lately! I LOVE it! It's been so nice! It's actually been cold and that is my favorite part!

I especially love when it rains in the evening through the night and then when you get up in the morning the sun is there all day. Everything smells clean and fresh and you can see the Superstition Mountains! Ahhhh, breathtaking!

All I can say is Thank you for the rain! It has been a welcome treat!

Well, I love a rainy night
I love a rainy night
I love to hear the thunder
Watch the lightning
When it lights up the sky
You know it makes me feel good

Well, I love a rainy night
It's such a beautiful sight
I love to feel the rain
On my face
Taste the rain on my lips
In the moonlight shadow

Showers washed
All my cares away
I wake up to a sunny day
'Cos I love a rainy night
Yeah, I love a rainy night
Well, I love a rainy night
Well, I love a rainy night

Puts a song
In this heart of mine
Puts a smile on my face every time

'Cos I love a rainy night
Yeah, I love a rainy night
Ooh, I love a rainy night
Yeah, I love a rainy night

I love a rainy night
You can see it in my eyes.

Pitty Party

Ugh! I feel like having a pitty party and I don't even know why.

Do you ever feel this way? I hate it when I do!

I'm just sitting here fighting this wave of negative thought and feelings. Yuck.

It usually comes without warning.

Everything was going good today and then **SMACK** right upside the head.

I totally want to throw a temper tantrum, hit something or sit here and cry.

But I don't have time. Too much to do. Things more important.

So I guess I'll just push through and try to smile. Or at least keep faking it. :{

{sigh}

My New Job

On January 4th the kids went back to school and I started a new job. Can I just say I LOVE IT!

It all started in November. I knew I needed to find a job. I decided that I would start really looking in January. My requirements for a job were:

a. It had to fit in my already full schedule. -i.e. babysitting on Tues, Coupon Sense responsibilities and assisting dance on Wed.
b. It had to allow me to still be a Mom & Wife first.
c. It had to be financially worth my time - i.e. make enough money to be worth being away from home!

Not too picky right?

I have known that my first priority is to my family. This past 1 1/2 years Vaughan and I have talked and talked and prayed and prayed about whether I should get a job. Each time we have both felt like I was suppose to stay home. I have tried different things, none of which have been too successful. But in November I knew what I needed to do. BUT I knew it had to be the RIGHT something and that Heavenly Father still wanted me to be a "stay at home" mom!

I will say I met with some opposition. When expressing my thoughts I got looks of "yeah, right." and comments telling me that I might have to let some of my requirements go! I couldn't have everything I wanted!

BUT, I knew what I needed. AND I have to say, it just felt right. There was peace in my heart. And an urgency to get my house organized and ready for Mom to be gone from home more! (I wish I would have heeded this prompting better!)

Then a casual conversation with my sister in law Karen took place at Thanksgiving. I sarcastically said I need a job. And she sarcastically said I have one for you. (We are both kinda sarcastic...something which we talked about today!) Then I asked a few questions and it started sounding like something that could actually work!! BUT, she didn't need anyone until January 4th! HELLO- Perfect said I.

So, about a week before I was to start I called Karen and asked her if she was serious. She said she was and the rest is history!

I was so nervous. But it has turned out to be the perfect thing. I still am not up to speed and I have lots to learn, but I can see how much this is going to help our family! I am so grateful for Karen and her willingness to help our family! I love renewing our friendship! Karen has always been one of my FAVORITE people. I have learned so much from her throughout my life. She has been such a great example of generous service! I am a better person because of her!

Oh - what am I doing? Yeah, I guess I should explain. Karen has a hemstitching business. She has been in business for 10 years! I have learned how to hemstitch burp clothes. I am almost a pro now! And I am currently learning to hemstitch around single baby blankets - medium and large! I'm not a pro yet... but I'll keep working at it! I run a hemstitching machine, which makes and finishes holes around the edge and then people (not me, 'cause I really don't know how!) crochet around the edge. It makes them beautiful and I've see some pretty amazing things. I've been told once you get started you can't stop! (crocheting) I'm currently resisting the addiction, but I am afraid I will succumb soon! You can't spend THAT much time with Karen and not give in. She has this way with her!

Thank you Karen! You are the best! I hope I can be half the person you are! LOVE YOU!

Angels Among Us

You've heard the saying "there are angels among us". There is even a song called Angels Among Us. It's beautiful. And when I hear it in the right setting it usually brings tears to my eyes!

Personally, I believe this is true. For SO MANY reasons.

Today, I was thinking about the "Angels" in my life. I have many. But there are certain ones that I am thinking about today.

Specifically two friends.

I have these pretty amazing friends in my ward. Both are moving. A lump forms in my throat whenever I think about it.

Cyndi is leaving this week. I am really happy for her and I know we will stay in touch through blogging. But it's not the same. Pretty soon her cute, darling, wonderful little girls will forget they ever lived in good 'ole Arizona! They won't remember us or how much we loved having them in our home!

Cyndi is one of those amazing women that you wish you could be like. I am constantly amazed by her creativity, her thoughtfulness and her wisdom. She is young enough to be my daughter but most of the time I feel like her pupil as I have observed her with her kids, heard her bare her testimony and witnessed the way she lives her life. I am so grateful that this Angel came into my life. She has touched my life - made an impact that will always be with me.

Thank you Cyndi for helping me be a better person! I love you and will miss you SO much! Thank you for being an amazing Young Women's leader to my girls. They love you. I know you have made a positive difference in our family. Give your girls a hug for me! I hope you will feel welcome to stop by and say hi if you dare to travel back to Arizona someday!

My other angel is Caroline! I have learned so much from working with her in various church callings. I love getting advise from her. She is so wise.

The economy has played total havoc with her life and her husband is working out of state while she is holding down the fort here at home with her four children. For as long as I've known her she has been a stay at home mom & worked part time teaching dance classes. But she has gone back to work. Not something she wants to do, but does with an amazing attitude and great courage. Watching her and talking with her has helped me with my own "economic havoc". She always has a smile on her face and positive things to say! I know it's not easy - we've talked about the hard stuff too, but her faith is strong and she just keeps moving forward.

We've cried together, laughed and cried some more. She has helped me through one of the hardest years of my life. She loves to tell me I've helped her, but I haven't done anything compared to what she has done for me. I don't know what I would have done without her this year. It was so nice to talk to someone who knew and understood all the dumb things I've gone through this year. I really can't imagine life without her and her family!

I LOVE her kids! They are so fun! They put up with me teasing them and giving them a hard time! (sorry Kate!) I wish I could stop time so that May wouldn't come! That is when they plan on moving. After graduation.

Thank you Emily & Kate - for making me feel loved in Young Women's and after! It has meant the world to me! You are such good examples and amazing Young Women. Thank you Caroline - for seeing me as the person I want to be and forgiving me for being the person I am. For always listening to my whining and showing me through word and action that you really care about me! It has meant so much to me!

I still refuse to believe you are really moving and until you actually pack up and drive away I am holding out hope that something changes and you will stay! But regardless I hope you know how much I love you. I really can't do enough to show you!

My life is blessed by these two angels. Thank you so much Cyndi and Caroline!

When life dealt troubled times and had me down on my knees
There's always been someone there to come along and comfort me
A kind word from a stranger to lend a helping hand
A phone call from a friend just to say I understand
Ain't it kind of funny at the dark end of the road
Someone light the way with just a single ray of hope

Oh, I believe there are angels among us
Sent down to us from somewhere up above
They come to you and me in our darkest hours
To show us how to live
To teach us how to give
To guide us with a light of love

My Favorite Christmas Memory of 2009

Christmas week was so much fun! It started out with our Durfee Family Christmas get together. It was fun visiting and eating. Everyone seemed to have a good time and enjoy one another.

Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday are a blur of finishing up all the odds and ends, marathon wrapping sessions and delivering treats to our friends. Every time I think of "cutting back" I realize that all of this is what makes Christmas special to me. There isn't anything I would rather do than "give gifts." I LOVE it!

Thursday night we had our Moore Christmas Eve gathering. It doesn't seem to matter how early we say we are going to start, it NEVER starts on time. If anyone has a suggestion on how to get your family all in one place within 30 minutes of starting time, please share! We finally started our festivities 1 1/2 hours after starting time and enjoyed YUMMY food! Mexican of course! There was food a plenty! We ate until we couldn't eat any more and then we had our talent portion of the evening. Each family does something. Or nothing. It is whatever you want to do. Our family sang a song. Can I just say that it is actually starting to sound pretty good! We have another male voice and the girls can harmonize and everything! BEE U TE FUL!

After trying to get my children to bed for Santa...(you think it's hard with little ones? Try big ones who stay up past midnight on a regular basis!) I finally went ahead and did my Santa helper thing and finally got to bed at 2:00am.

The girls were up and ready to go by 7:00am! There was lots of laughing and hugging as hopes, wishes and dreams were fulfilled!

This year I had a very special gift for one of my girls! This gift has been LONG waited for. She hasn't said much about it, but I knew it was important to her when she asked if I would get it for her for her birthday (which will be in February).

So in October I started working on this gift. I drove to Phoenix, I made phone calls, I visited the bank (twice), I searched high and low for the things I needed. Finally, everything was just right. I decided NOT to wait until her birthday, but to give it to her for Christmas. So after everyone was done opening gifts I asked them to wait in the living room because I had a very special gift for Holli.

I will NEVER forget her face. Everyone sat down again full of anticipation. Hillary had already been briefed on what she needed to do and was busy getting that ready in the kitchen. I handed Holli her gift. She looked very confused and nervous about opening it! But she did! Inside this special box was Holli's birth certificate.

Finally.




After 14 +years she now has a birth certificate. She lifted it out of the box, total confusion on her face and as she started reading it the light dawned and the biggest smile lit her face. Then Hillary came in with a cinnamon braid wreath with birthday candles and we all sang Happy Birthday To You.

And she cried.

Yep, she did. She cried and laughed and cried some more. It was the sweetest thing ever. It makes tears come to my eyes to remember. It couldn't have gone better. It was just what I had hoped. I don't know if I realized how much it would mean to her, but I do now! I hugged her and told her welcome to the family! You're Born!


So crazy I know, but it feels so good to have this silly document! This legal piece of paper!

And that is what I will always remember about Christmas 2009. This sweet girl who we have teased about "not existing" because she didn't have a birth certificate. I'm sure she will need counseling in the future, but I hope she knows she has always existed and been a special part of our lives - with or without that silly piece of paper! I love you Holli dolly!

(I know someone is wondering "Why didn't she have a birth certificate?" The simple answer is that the midwife who assisted in her birth didn't file it! And yes, I have worked on this off and on for years. I just kept dropping the ball, so I would have to start over. Well, and in the beginning I actually thought it had been filed. It took awhile to get the puzzle put together! But now it's done! YAY! It makes for a good story anyway!)